Blown Deadline

I am in the midst of a big downer.

My definition of integrity is: “doing what you say you’re going to do when you say you’re going to do it.” Having this type of integrity is something I’ve definitely struggled with over the years, but right now I’m feeling it like a sack of bricks.

It’s June 1st and my B/X Companion is still not ready for sale. I missed my May deadline.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.

And I really don’t have anyone to blame but myself. I should have applied for the ISBNs months ago (I would have if I’d known it was going to take so long to get them). I didn’t allow enough time for the completion of the color artwork for the cover…I figured it was something that could be “whipped up” in a few days time (I am extremely ignorant of the painting process). I was feeling very Arien when I posted my May deadline announcement, and I should have remembered that Chiron is in my 5th house in Aries…I tend to hurt myself by acting impulsively like that.

Crap.

Ok. Enough “pity party.” I’m coming up on the 1 year anniversary (June 6th) and there’s a lot I can look back on and be proud of over the last year. I might as well take stock of the ground covered, and congratulate myself for what I HAVE accomplished.

After all, there’s little I can do without a cover and an ISBN. Period.

I apologize to all for not doing what I said I was going to do. I accept full responsibility for blowing my own deadline. I will rectify the situation as soon as possible.

Now…on with the show.
; )